It's Another Day
Mar. 10th, 2002 01:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
miko2Darrell called today. I haven't heard from him since last July. Of course, I could have called him, but I'm a bum. Anyway, he only called me because he's having problems with his computer at work, and he thinks I know a lot about computers or something.
So I wanted to write in my journal last night about how I was "sick, and tired, and bored" which is a line from a song I like. But I just went to bed. I feel much better today.
Anyway, I'd been looking forward to this weekend because of gaming on Saturday and the Tempest concert Sunday... I did absolutely NOTHING last week, aside from some writing, I never saw anybody, so I was looking forward to seeing people. But I wasn't feeling well last night and I didn't have enough sleep, and it's kind of weird to sit in a room for 8 hours with your friends and not actually have any real conversations with them. And then the game ended, and I left. I felt like I hadn't done anything all day.
That's not true of course, but I didn't do much the last few hours except try to stay awake. I think 9 hours is too long a gaming session for me, but I don't want to just leave when I get tired and can't follow what's going on anymore, because I know that the game's building towards a big encounter or event. Last night, though, I should have gone to the store or something, take a break, or just gone home. Or maybe I should have slept in more Saturday and not worried about the game starting at 3 pm... not like I was there on time anyway.
And the weird thing is, when I think about it today, I feel like I had fun. What else was I going to do anyway?
Why is it that I look forward to gaming, and afterwards I feel like it was a lot of fun, but during the gaming session I'm not really having that much fun? Is my life really that boring? I can barely remember what it was like when I first got into gaming, how magical everything seemed. That was waaay too long ago.
Gene works really hard on his games, does a lot of research and planning, and it shows. Each time we get together there's more people. But the game develops slowly, and of course with such a large gaming group, a lot of it involves other characters. It's hard to keep focused on the game. After six or seven hours I'm just watching the clock, wondering if it'll all be over soon.
Maybe I just need a Palm Pilot to play games on. ^_^;
So I wanted to write in my journal last night about how I was "sick, and tired, and bored" which is a line from a song I like. But I just went to bed. I feel much better today.
Anyway, I'd been looking forward to this weekend because of gaming on Saturday and the Tempest concert Sunday... I did absolutely NOTHING last week, aside from some writing, I never saw anybody, so I was looking forward to seeing people. But I wasn't feeling well last night and I didn't have enough sleep, and it's kind of weird to sit in a room for 8 hours with your friends and not actually have any real conversations with them. And then the game ended, and I left. I felt like I hadn't done anything all day.
That's not true of course, but I didn't do much the last few hours except try to stay awake. I think 9 hours is too long a gaming session for me, but I don't want to just leave when I get tired and can't follow what's going on anymore, because I know that the game's building towards a big encounter or event. Last night, though, I should have gone to the store or something, take a break, or just gone home. Or maybe I should have slept in more Saturday and not worried about the game starting at 3 pm... not like I was there on time anyway.
And the weird thing is, when I think about it today, I feel like I had fun. What else was I going to do anyway?
Why is it that I look forward to gaming, and afterwards I feel like it was a lot of fun, but during the gaming session I'm not really having that much fun? Is my life really that boring? I can barely remember what it was like when I first got into gaming, how magical everything seemed. That was waaay too long ago.
Gene works really hard on his games, does a lot of research and planning, and it shows. Each time we get together there's more people. But the game develops slowly, and of course with such a large gaming group, a lot of it involves other characters. It's hard to keep focused on the game. After six or seven hours I'm just watching the clock, wondering if it'll all be over soon.
Maybe I just need a Palm Pilot to play games on. ^_^;
